Empty arms a broken heart
Thoughts of what should be
I look down and all I see
Is a stomach way too small
Not big enough, not ready yet
To push you out into this world.
You came so unexpectedly
Your time with me so short
Nothing seems as it should be
Nothing seems quite right.
But all things work together
For the good of God
This new life here with in me,
Your sibling to be forever,
If you had not so suddenly
Grown your pretty angel wings
Then "Cupcake" would not be.
So I must think of all the things
That are so good in my life
Remembering always a few short weeks of carrying you,
Even with it causing me so much strife,
Are better than having not ever known you
Before you grew wings and flew.
I can not imagine not for a second
Not having had you in my life at all
Or not having my Cupcake now growing
So big and fat and strong
I must always remember Gods promises
And so tightly to those hold on.
Somedays it can be oh so hard
To not miss you terribly so
Bu then I must release my fear
And remember you are always near.
You have not left my life
You just can not be with me in flesh
But you are still my baby, though your face I can not caress.
The pain though I can not allow to cut through me like a knife
I am just so happy to have had you in my life
And now in heaven with the angels you are
As they proclaim your beauty.
So quickly you came and left my life just like a shooting star
My angel, my princess too special for this world to see
But forever and eternity my baby you will be.
My precious baby angel please I pray this know
The joy of pushing you out into this world
To share you life with me
It hurts so much that this just was not meant to be.
But you slid so quickly, so many months ago
Out into my loving hands and off to heaven you flew
Now the angels hold you near and lovingly tell you
All about me my dear.
Mommy loves you and wishes you were here
But where you at is a much better place
And things are as they should be
God is taking care of you and loving you for me.
I will send my kisses up to you
And hugs and cuddles too
Just know how much I love you
And long to hold you near.
So quickly you did come and go
And now, I must love you and miss you from afar
My precious, beautiful little shooting star.